In The Wake of a Perfect Dream

Haven't we all felt this way? This song was a process for me...I wrote it Summer 2011. It began with the chorus, as I've said before, which always seems to happen with my songs. I was driving down the highway on my way to meet one of the owners of the studio where I recorded "Need An Angel" to pick up my finished recording. I hadn't heard the full recording yet and I was excited, nervous, and scared. I had this sudden fear tingle down my spine that it would be terrible...for weeks I had thought of how exciting everything was, how awesome it would be...it never occurred to me that I might not like it. The Chorus for "In The Wake..." came to me while I was driving down that highway...singing is such a precious dream to me...I felt so close, and then this fear came to me..."In the wake of a perfect dream, where everything is not what it seems. I'm in the wake of a perfect dream and I'm falling beneath the waves. Oh, I'm falling beneath the waves." Of course, when I got the track, it was amazing...the studio did an amazing job and it was exactly what I had envisioned for it to be. They did such an amazing job hearing my 'heart' in the project.

The chorus to "In the Wake..." was all that I had for weeks. Then, things started to happen around me...two of my close friends went through significant break-ups, and my husband and I were frustrated over the market because...on top of everything else in our five-ring circus of a life, he's a builder and I'm a Realtor...you've seen the news.All of these things combined led to the verses.

Who am I singing to? I don't know exactly...at times I'm singing to myself, the economy, the 'others' that walked away from people I love...people that have mislead me in life, etc. It was hard for me to put this out there. I usually always try to write a positive chorus at the end of my songs, but that's not how this one came out of me.

Thankfully, I have a loving Lord that knows my heart. He understands that sometimes we have to have a pity party. This song was my pity party. If you identify with it, know that you are not alone. We have all had experiences in life that disillusion us in some way...but we can recover with the loving grace of Jesus and the love of our friends and family!